I guess I will keep this blog as a separate entity from wordpress. I upload that one more, and I think I even have more followers, but fuck it. I like blogger a lot, so I will continue from where I stopped.
Some really nasty things have been going on in my head. Real bad, real dark - and as always I try to deal with it in the wrongest way possible. I got drunk and decided to go back to the ABC diet. That is the only died that ever worked for me, and in all honesty, I feel a bit better now that I have that kind of routine. I know how much I can consume, I know when to fast.
I purged a lot in the time I was away from blogger. And I mean, A LOT. That is also why I opted for starting the ABC diet again. Maybe I will not binge and purge as much.
Apart from that... well. Life is always pretty silent, S. does not help at all, I fought with him constantly, I have trouble waking up due to depression and I draw a lot of scary things. Anorexic women stares vacantly at me from the easel. Tied up girls with loads of tattoos. Mannequins and puppets, as if it was a damn Hans Bellmer picture. I guess my creativity is always positively influenced by my disordered life.
